well kept hearing my boyfriend’s phone vibrate, and i wanted to make sure it was on ringer so his alarm could wake him and there was a half written text message to a girl named brittney asking if he could call her, cause he wanted to hear her voice, now im trying to not let it get to my head, because he’s told me about her, and about all his friends that are girls, and about how in past relationships his closeness with girls that are just friends, was always a problem, now, i dont want to over think this especially because he told me about seeing this girl with her husband and child when he went out of state to visit his cousin, but it leaves me a little room to wonder„„ for one he wont be my friend on fb and even though i dont think that as a serious thing, i am concerned why he chooses to “hide” me, at least social media wise, he says he told his closest friends about me, and that they notice a change in him.
also, ive never had a man look me directly in the eyes and tell me he loves me, and that im perfect for him, and that he wants to spend the rest of his life with me, i hope he’s speaking the truth when he looks me in the eyes that way because ive never been so in love, and it scares me to think there are other girls waiting in the wings ready to pounce on him, at the first chance they get.. and so what i got a little snoopy, thats my babe, my love, and yea i got curious, so why do i feel a little guilty for invading his privacy… what really grinds my gears is the fact that i saw that he still texts an ex, and ex that kissed him while we were dating, that i almost stopped talking to him for because i saw a picture of it on fb back a month before he asked me to be his girlfriend,
maybe i should just wait it out, he did offer to buy me a new phone yesterday, aka a two year contract he has to pay for even if we break up, idk, i really really want to believe him when he says he loves me. and he does show it, but only time will tell if i end up heart broken again, this time its gonna cut me deepest and i dont even want to think about how much that is going to hurt….
did i forget to mention, he’s staying with me at my mom’s place right now, makes it a little more complicated.